Posts Tagged Maine

Reboot Almost Complete.

Aug 2

Posted by KraziJoe in Family life, Friends, Maine, Random Musings | No Comments

I compared my divorce and move to Maine as a Reboot, like a computer Reboot. It pretty much starts over and wipes the slate clean. I channeled my inner Geek. Ok, so it’s not really inner it’s who I am.
I had a checklist of things I needed to accomplish and am left with 1 thing left.
1. File for Divorce—DONE
2. Quit my Job and move to Maine—Done
3. Establish previous friendships with friends in Maine—Done (For the most part)
4. Find a Job—Done
5. Move into a place of my own—Incomplete
6. Sign the Divorce Papers—Incomplete.

So I am basically down to 2 things left and a lot of my prior life in VA have been purged. I have kept the friendships I made while there and will cherish them.
I will say that my life is making the progress right now that I had planned and am happy with.
There have been ups and downs and there will be more, but the friends that I have had made them all manageable.
I for one had taken them for granted but when the chips were down and you need them, the true friends are there. For that I am very grateful! The future looks good so it’s time to charge forward and while the past was not the best, it has made me into who I am today so I embrace it all and live on…

Party on Wayne!

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Moving on.

Jun 19

Posted by KraziJoe in Family life, Friends, Maine | No Comments

When you grow up you have a certain expectation or perception of how things are supposed to be. You expect family to be there, you expect someone to answer when you call 911, you perceive the military to be full of virtuous people and you expect to utter “till death do us part” to mean well, you will be with that person until you die…

Sometimes things shatter these expectations and perceptions.  I always expected my marriage to be one of those expectations that lasted forever, but like life, shit happens. Sometimes there is good shit and sometimes there is bad shit and sometimes there is shit that no matter what happens anyway. Well, in this case, it just happened.

As mentioned before, it has been tough and since I am an emotional person, it has been extra tough. Going to work each day keeping a smile on my face and trying to be stoic only ended up kicking me in the ass in the end. It’s hard to keep life and word separate and when this happens it’s even harder. Sometimes it’s good things and sometimes it’s bad things. It just so happened that this time it was a good and bad thing. A work confrontation pushed me over the edge, though I did not do anything, it was the last straw and due to that I made the decision to just take the plunge. I made a snap decision and decided to put in my 2 week notice and pack up what I have left and move back to where I always considered home.

One cannot describe the amount of stress one gets when you are going through something like this, but when I sent off the email stating I am leaving, it was like someone removed a huge weight off of me. It’s like I can actually breath now, and of course that was gone once I thought about, WHAT THE HELL AM I GOING TO DO!? I don’t have a job and I just making a leap of faith, even if you have none.

Thankfully I have a good support system in Maine already. I have the Staples family who is like my second family. I have high school and college friends that have wandered back into my life via Facebook. (Just a suggestion for those out there, just because you leave does not mean you have to drop all contact with all of your longtime friends. That is the WORST thing to do, I am just glad I found them again). I have all I need and the job will come and the pain will subside, joy and happiness will come and best of all life will go on.

I will probably always love Christine as she will hold a space in my heart forever but somethings are just not meant to be and as much as it hurt, this is really the best for both of us.

This chapter of my life will close on June 26th, 2009 and the new chapter will begin when I drive over the Piscataqua River Bridge and welcome the embrace of home…

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April

Apr 26

Posted by KraziJoe in Random Musings | No Comments

I figured I should make a post for April. I have put most of my thoughts up on Facebook. A lot has actually happened since the last time I posted something.
1. I am moving back to Maine.
2. I am going alone.
3. I am getting a divorce.

Long story short, we grew apart and did nothing to remedy the problem until it was too late. It hurts because I always thought this was forever, but now I am a failure and just part of a statistic. Thankfully I have friends that have been helping me out during it.

I got my Krazi Krew that I talk to everyday, even if a few of them left, I still talk to them on FB. They provided a lot of insight about it.

The Terror Sisters have helped me a lot. I talk to them and ping things off of them either about moving back to Maine or the divorce.

The bitch has helped me a lot too. well, she’s not a bitch she is a great person but she always reminds me of something I said in High School about calling her a bitch. I don’t remember it that way, I think I said Great Person, but you know how the memory can go as you get older. 

Thanks to the Caps crew. There are a few of you that have provided words of support and advice, so I appreciate them also.

Chip as provided some advice and some great support too.

Thanks to the Water crew. G and E have provided much needed ears or just a place to get away for a few hours. You all have been great, so thank you!

It’s so great to have an extended family and thanks to all of you, even the ones that humor me when it’s 1AM and I am drunk out of my mind. Thanks to you all too.

And to make this not so dreary…

LETS GO CAPS!!!

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Yea’s and Nay’s for the day…

Oct 19

Posted by KraziJoe in Baseball, Boston Red Sox, Maine, Parenting, Politics | No Comments

Something new to try to get me to put stuff down more regularly. No, it’s not a wheat drink…

lets start off with the YEA’s

YEA– to the Boston Red Sox. they won game 5 pretty easily. Josh Beckett is such a stud this time of year.  He is the MVP of the Red Sox right now. Manny is a close second as he is really locked into the pitch and there really does not seem to be anyone that can stop him.

NAY:

Nay to the Portland School Board for allowing King Middle School to prescribe Birth Control pills to their students. While I can understand their reasoning, I just feel it is not right for the School District to get into this part of parenting.  I am kind of ambivalent to this since I do not actually live there, nor in Maine as of right now, but I would like to hope that kids really do speak to their parents and their parents really do talk to their kids. Ok…that is REALLY Naive, isn’t it?

Maybe if Parents really did parent there would not be a need for something like this, but more and more parents do not parent. I don’t really know why or when parents forgot how to parent…Actually, my mother did not parent, but I felt I made informed choices since I was such a nerd and did not want to fall into the cycle that I saw before me I got out.

So what can the school district and parents do? I really have no idea, since one does not want to address the issue and the other addressed it the wrong way…Between the 2 of them, they can come up with the right answer, but will that happen? Probably not…

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More High School Dreams.

Apr 23

Posted by KraziJoe in High School, Maine | No Comments

So it has happened again. I am having dream of being in High School. It really is weird, since I have no idea what puts that thought there. Maybe it’s anticipation of me moving back to Maine, though that is over a year away.  It started a little over a week ago when someone I knew in HS was in one of my dreams. Actually it was a lot of people, some from my years in High School, some from my years in the Army and some present day. It did seem to focus on one person though, Jill Bourget. Someone I had not talked too in almost 20 years. Read the rest of this entry »

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High School memories.

Feb 28

Posted by KraziJoe in High School, Maine, Washington Capitals | 2 Comments

As I grow older I seem to become more wiser…HA! Who am I kidding. I am not that wise, but I did stay at a Holiday Inn last night. Where was I? Oh Yeah…

Every so often I have dreams that I am back in High School. I went to a moderately large High School in Standish, Maine, called Bonny Eagle High School.

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State Police car with a Car Dealers tag on it?

Feb 22

Posted by KraziJoe in Maine, News | No Comments

Interesting story out of Maine. It seems a State Trooper had a Car Dealer tag attached to his car. Not only that but this tag was reported stolen over 8 years ago! The State Police are looking into the matter but what do they hope it will accomplish? If it’s like most other “Police were Caught doing something illegal” cases, it will be swept under the rug. I am not sure WHY he would do something like this. Maybe to throw people off of his unmarked car. Or if someone saw him doing something illegal they would have the wrong plate. What I find interesting in the story is this little snippit-

“Linda Bolduc, who e-mailed the photo to the Portland Press Herald, said the trooper threatened to arrest her for obstruction of justice, but calmed down after she explained he had a long lost license plate attached to the back of his cruiser.

She asked the trooper where he got the plate, and he said he confiscated it during the late 1990s, around the time the couple reported it lost or stolen and paid the state $5.50 to get a replacement.”

I hope they intend to look into his intimidation tactics. Last I looked it was not against the law to take a picture of a public worker while they are doing their job in a public setting.

Overall, this story does seem kinda weird, doesn’t it? I am not really sure what to make of it. Having the plate is illegal but why use it. That is what needs to be addressed. I just hope the Portland Press Herald stays on top of this one.

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