It’s funny how one can go through different emotions in a matter of 5 minutes. Going through photos and such to trigger these responses. And people say I am an unemotional ass…HA! I maybe an ass but I’m an emotional one!
I feel good and not much is gonna change that right now. I got the house going. Got a relationship that is starting to blossom and a job that, while sucks sometimes, is still a good job.
I’m good…For reals yo!

First…I own land on the Little Ossippee river and because of that I need to follow rules by Limington as well as from the Saco River Corridor Commission (SRCC). Well SRCC has rules that say that your house must be set back so far from the high water line.

The way I had my house situated made me as well as Leavitt (contractor) unsure if it was set back the 180 feet needed.

I called the SRCC and they agreed to come out with Leavitt to measure and set pins for the foundation. Well after frantic phonecalls an sleepless nights it happened and now the house is set…at least on that side.

Now to the other problem. I asked a company to come out and GPS survey the site to make sure all the boundaries are correct. I especially wanted the front boundaries set so I know where to set the house and have enough setback to not intrude on the neighbors land and enough room for a future garage.

Well, this seemed to be a little more than he could do BUT still expected payment on the work he completed. He mentioned a friend that is a surveyor and I talked to him.
He set a price and then saw how much work was actually involved raised the price. It appears that there have been no real survey on my land and the surrounding properties. The pins are nowhere to be found and most markings are either gone or moved.

So now I have to pay a surveyor to make all those markings to make sure that my house is setback and will not intrude.

This whole ordeal has been a major headache. Oh. And all of this has happened this week! All while I am in Mac training. There have been many times I’ve run out of class making frantic calls. This week has been a week from hell. Let’s hope the worst of it is over and everything will fall into place.

Through this all I will say that the SRCC as well as Leavitt has been very accommodating and have nothing but praise for their professionalism.

There are few new photos at the site. gallery.me.com/krazijoe

It’s coming together, just more headaches than expected!

BELLA!

if you want to see the land right now, check it out at http://gallery.me.com/krazijoe

TTFN!

All that week I chat with her “mother” until I see her on YIM. I say “Lisa” and it’s not, it’s her Daughter. Which is weird because why isn’t she at school, and why is she only online during Lisa’s work hours (hindsight)…WE chat about all that is going on. I eventually got the name of the hospital that she is at and I call because I have not gotten a straight answer from anyone about her condition. The Hospital has no knowledge of this Lisa being in their care. I then quesitoin the “daughter” about it and she says she must be mistaken and that she was moved from one hospital to another.

Eventually I had enough of the BS talk and decided to call her work, so I call and I ask for Lisa and they say she stepped out can they take a message for her. I ask if she is in and they say yes she is…I then just say, tell her Tom called. At that point I just start laughing…I had Chip’s GF Pamela call to confirm and she got the same answer. I then log into FB and notice that both Pamela and I were defriended from her. THEN I got a text form her “Exhusband” saying that he is taking over all of her accounts and does not want anyone to contact her anymore because it is stressing her out. I then laugh and say ok…

1 week later I get a text saying she is out of the Hospital and she starts talking to me like nothing has happened. I decided to play along and my non rational side of my brain starts believing her again. Well, this lasted for 4 days. On the 4th day I see she posted something on her FB wall, which she decided to friend me again, and then noticed that she commented on “Tom’s” picture. I HAD to look at it because I am a nosy SOB. I look at it and BAM. “I love this pic of you! It makes me want to eat you up. I can’t wait till we start our life together!!!” I then look at the date and it’s a date when she was “supposedly” in the ICU at Boston Medical Center. I asked her to call me, which she did. I asked her who Tom was AGAIN and same answer and then I read what “she” had said and her answer was, My FB has been hacked. I LOL’d. She she said she had to go and she would look at it.
I sent her a screen shot of it just to see what was going on. She was incredulous that I took a screen shot and said she had enough stress in her life, she didn’t need anymore. I replied, well if you want to talk about it, call me later if not, then I take the out…And I took the Out…Which I was going to do anyway, well at least the rational side of me.

My irrational side said, why would anyone lie like that when all they had to say was see ya? I couldn’t wrap my brain around it…I guess my irrational brain sees everything with Rainbows and Unicorns…A Sucker is born every minute…

I started this on the 23rd. Now it’s the 26th and it ain’t any easier and yes I said AIN’T.  I was just listening to Careless Whisper, Seether’s version, and it got me thinking. Well, the lines

“We could have been so good together
We could have lived this dance forever
But now who’s gonna dance with me?”

And I lost it…Heck, I am losing it now…Thank God Skid Row just popped on with 18 and Life instead of I Remember You!

AS things go through my mind they come back to that marriage is supposed to be FOR LIFE. Until Death do we part. You know that line? Was there anything I could have done to make sure it didn’t get to this point? Yes there was but I was blind to and/or ignored them. It’s a lot easier to ignore things and sweep them under the rug and just pretend they don’t exist that is until you are forced to deal with them and at that point they could destroy the nice little utopia you have going on in your mind. I know I shouldn’t beat myself up over it, but when I have been preaching COMMUNICATION and then don’t follow that, what does that say? It says I was a douche and human…

I realize that things could have been different and should have been different but it didn’t quite work out like that. I can accept that in time until that happens there will probably be tears and doubts and self pity. I am not the Rock of Gibraltar and never claimed to be and even if I were, rocks break down over time…I guess the one thing that makes it harder is that I don’t hate Christine, in fact I still care about her and dare I say I love her very much. She will always have a place in my heart and that is what hurts the most. INSERT FUCK BEANS HERE.

LOL! Now I sit here laughing reading over what I am writing and wondering if I ever had a coherent thought and if I did could I string them together into a coherent paragraph, essay, story whatever…I got a bunch of stories that are doozies that would make the Movie of the Week seem like an afterschool special.

December 29th…It’s early still…You’re almost here…A date I look forward too and despise at the same time…It’s moving towards me at a blazing speed…something I would never have guessed last year at this time. A year…A unit in time where almost anything can happen. Even that which you least expect…2009. End of a decade…End of one of the shittiest years of my life…

More later…