Krazi Joe's Kraziness

Looking back over a few of the last musings I had and all I can say is WHAT A LOSER! Same shit different day…Time to turn over a new leaf, right Denise?

As I enter into the month of madness let me just say…Ok, I really have nothing to say.
Someone said to me once, that “Everything will work out the way it’s supposed to.”
I can’t really argue with that now can I?
Let the madness begin!

What a difference a month makes!!!
Rinse, Lather, Repeat!!!
And now a word from our Sponsor…

Ever since I left Maine back in March of 91, I always wanted to come back. Eventually I made it back in June 09. BUT I ended up coming back in a way I did not envision.

Part of my life plan was to move back to Maine with my wife, buy a house and get started on making a family. AS with all plans, there are bumps in the road. They never seem to go as planned.

Recently another part of my plan came together. I got my house…It had been a long road and taken a lot longer than I had expected and any others had expect. Everything seemed topsy turvy there for a while. Lots of stress and sleepless nights.

When I moved here I was given good living conditions. Chip offered me a room in his place and I gladly accepted. He has been a great friend and opened his house and family to me. When I moved in I knew that it was a temporary placement until I got a place of my own. We had set a time of June 2010 for me to be out. Well, as I said, Plans never go as expected.

I brought up to him that I would be getting a house built and should be in it by July/August and can I stay until it’s built. And it was not a problem. Well, August past…September, October, November, December…Every time I had a date it always got pushed back. The running Joke was when I would move out and the kids did not believe me. It got to a point where I just said Fuck it…It happens when it happens. I apologized just about every time we talked about it. I felt bad. Chips girlfriend, Pamela and her Children moved in and there were growing pains as always when you mesh 2 families together, and then throw me in the mix and it made it a little harder. I felt bad. Really bad that I was still there past the time I said I would be. I tried to make the best of it with them and the kids and hope I did not impose too much. I could not have made it as I have without Chip, His whole family and Pamela and her Children. It was a long road and I hope that I did not cause too many problems while there. Words cannot express how grateful I am for all of them, Chip, Pamela, Raymond, Renae, Nick, Liam and Alison. Believe it or not, I will be miss being part of that bunch. Through it all, it really was a good time.

Through it all, I am happy. With the stress and everything else on Wednesday, January 26th, It seemed as a great Weight has been lifted off of me. Tara has been there just about the whole time as my Mortgage Broker. Providing me guidance and insight. She made it all a little easier and less painful. Thank you Tara for all that you did.

And to everyone else that listened to me bitch, moan and complain about the last year, Thank You. You all have been immensely helpful to me. WIth out you all it would have been a lot more painful.

As with all things, everything happens for a reason. No, I am not married and not I am not starting a family. But I have a great and Beautiful girlfriend, Kim, and the future is looking bright.

No kids, but I am not dead yet and there are many options still open to me.

I am happy…And right now that is all that matters.
This chapter is over and it’s time to Turn The Page.

So here we are at the end of another year. it was exactly one year ago today that my divorce FINALLY was final! That sounds weird…Finally was final…Anyway, after 10 months it was signed and 6.5 years of my life gone bye-bye…Ok, it wasn’t that bad but it was about time. Why can’t people get divorced as easily as they get married, especially when it is amicable?
ANYWAY, this is about THIS year in review, not something from last year…Since I covered “dating” yesterday I will cover other stuff today…

The biggest thing the last year has been the house. OI! I started this in February!!! and here it is end of December and I think that is a light at the end of the tunnel, or it’s a train and I’m about to get slammed again…It has been a long arduous journey but I am finally at the peak…Or close to it…COME ON TARA!!! I’ve got photos over at my Me.com site ( http://gallery.me.com/krazijoe ). More to come when I move into the damn place…
So here we are 10 months later and it’s coming to fruition. Overall it’s a little bittersweet. This was all part of my plan on moving back to Maine except I didn’t expect to be moving in alone…But it is what it is (Ok, that phrase is a litt…A LOT, overused…I need to find a new one to use). I’ve made peace with myself on that issue and it’s no good rehashing because it does nothing in the grand scheme of things…Like I sad yesterday, it’s time to look forward…

So here I am, looking forward to put this year behind me and move forward to the next chapter…2011, Joe and the Giant House…I think first it will be a Pampered Chef party!!! I love free stuff and then the stuff that I can use to cook with makes it all that much more special!!! Yes, Amy, you will be the hostess so maybe the 3rd week or so in January or whenever I can get into the place, get it cleaned, painted and looking like I want it too…Everyone look for the invites! And if I forget you, come anyway…Can I get an Amen???

Peace out my Homies…

Though I have had some good experiences and some bad experiences and I mean BAD, it’s not as bad as it could be. I have made a few friends in the process and one has to have a positive outlook on these things! I am not a Negative Nancy.

The year started with a girl who got into a car accident and got airlifted to a hospital that she could not remember the name or who exactly she was supposed to be dating at the time and the year ended with the “I’m not ready speech”. And in between it ran the gamut. Some I didn’t agree with and some that didn’t agree with me. I’ve been lucky and still have my sanity though.

Through it all even when there were times I could not understand as to why. I’ve heard the “You’re a great guy BUT” story. The “It’s not you it’s me” story. The “I’m dating someone else” story. The “Yeah, you’re not my type”, story and my favorite “You’re treated me the best I’ve been treated but…”, story. And I have to admit I have used a few of those myself. As everyone says now, it is what it is. They are all experiences that make you grow as a person. Take the knowledge and move on. Don’t regret.

It’s time to look forward and not hold out hope for the past. What could have been is over now. It’s what will be, that I am looking to.

Hopefully Joe’s bachelor pad will be in full swing soon!!! Party on Wayne!

Dating in 2010 is over and here is to dating in 2011!!!

Today is the same as yesterday except for all the things that have changed.
That is all, please drive through!