June 19th, 2009
When you grow up you have a certain expectation or perception of how things are supposed to be. You expect family to be there, you expect someone to answer when you call 911, you perceive the military to be full of virtuous people and you expect to utter “till death do us part” to mean well, you will be with that person until you die…
Sometimes things shatter these expectations and perceptions. I always expected my marriage to be one of those expectations that lasted forever, but like life, shit happens. Sometimes there is good shit and sometimes there is bad shit and sometimes there is shit that no matter what happens anyway. Well, in this case, it just happened.
As mentioned before, it has been tough and since I am an emotional person, it has been extra tough. Going to work each day keeping a smile on my face and trying to be stoic only ended up kicking me in the ass in the end. It’s hard to keep life and word separate and when this happens it’s even harder. Sometimes it’s good things and sometimes it’s bad things. It just so happened that this time it was a good and bad thing. A work confrontation pushed me over the edge, though I did not do anything, it was the last straw and due to that I made the decision to just take the plunge. I made a snap decision and decided to put in my 2 week notice and pack up what I have left and move back to where I always considered home.
One cannot describe the amount of stress one gets when you are going through something like this, but when I sent off the email stating I am leaving, it was like someone removed a huge weight off of me. It’s like I can actually breath now, and of course that was gone once I thought about, WHAT THE HELL AM I GOING TO DO!? I don’t have a job and I just making a leap of faith, even if you have none.
Thankfully I have a good support system in Maine already. I have the Staples family who is like my second family. I have high school and college friends that have wandered back into my life via Facebook. (Just a suggestion for those out there, just because you leave does not mean you have to drop all contact with all of your longtime friends. That is the WORST thing to do, I am just glad I found them again). I have all I need and the job will come and the pain will subside, joy and happiness will come and best of all life will go on.
I will probably always love Christine as she will hold a space in my heart forever but somethings are just not meant to be and as much as it hurt, this is really the best for both of us.
This chapter of my life will close on June 26th, 2009 and the new chapter will begin when I drive over the Piscataqua River Bridge and welcome the embrace of home…
Tags:
Family life,
Friends,
High School,
Maine
Categories: Family life, Friends, Maine
Tags: Family life, Friends, High School, Maine
June 19th, 2009
Thus a test to see if I can post from my iPhone.
No tag for this post.
Categories: Random Musings
April 26th, 2009
I figured I should make a post for April. I have put most of my thoughts up on Facebook. A lot has actually happened since the last time I posted something.
1. I am moving back to Maine.
2. I am going alone.
3. I am getting a divorce.
Long story short, we grew apart and did nothing to remedy the problem until it was too late. It hurts because I always thought this was forever, but now I am a failure and just part of a statistic. Thankfully I have friends that have been helping me out during it.
I got my Krazi Krew that I talk to everyday, even if a few of them left, I still talk to them on FB. They provided a lot of insight about it.
The Terror Sisters have helped me a lot. I talk to them and ping things off of them either about moving back to Maine or the divorce.
The bitch has helped me a lot too. well, she’s not a bitch she is a great person but she always reminds me of something I said in High School about calling her a bitch. I don’t remember it that way, I think I said Great Person, but you know how the memory can go as you get older.
Thanks to the Caps crew. There are a few of you that have provided words of support and advice, so I appreciate them also.
Chip as provided some advice and some great support too.
Thanks to the Water crew. G and E have provided much needed ears or just a place to get away for a few hours. You all have been great, so thank you!
It’s so great to have an extended family and thanks to all of you, even the ones that humor me when it’s 1AM and I am drunk out of my mind. Thanks to you all too.
And to make this not so dreary…
LETS GO CAPS!!!
Tags:
Friends,
Maine,
Washington Caps
Categories: Random Musings
Tags: Friends, Maine, Washington Caps
March 27th, 2009
So Spring came into being last week and here we are with non spring weather. Now, I love the cold, but love it in the winter time! I want warm weather dammit!
I want to see the sundresses on all the women! Is that so hard to understand?
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Categories: Random Musings
March 23rd, 2009
Or in my case Krazi…
1. The world
There all done…
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Categories: Random Musings
March 17th, 2009
Is Randomness even a word?
The US is in the shitter, The Caps decided that 100 Points was just too many and my cat shits bricks and I am pondering Randomness being a word. I guess if I really wanted to know I would just go to dictionary.com, like I just did, and I confirmed to myself that randomness is a word. It’s a noun. Now that that is through, lets move away from the word of the day to the number of the day.
The number of the day is 2, which is the number of hours of sleep I got Sunday night.
Color of the day is green, NO not because of St. Patrick’s Day, but because I like the way Green, actually Hunter Green, looks on me. I seem to like more of the earth tones.
Ok, enough of my feminine side…
Has anyone seen my 401K? I seem to have misplaced it somewhere…
Are there any good bands out today? Am I the only one pining for 80’s rock? Maybe I just wish I were 18 again…
What is up with that one chick going back to that dude that beat her up and why the hell is it all over the news? The media could not get to the whole financial mess but they can give us indepth coverage of Octo-Mom and Brittney’s new tour…
We’re going to hell in a handbasket and I am driving! ALL ABOARD!!!
Tags:
Caps,
News,
Random
Categories: Random Musings
Tags: Caps, News, Random
February 20th, 2009
So I get up to go to the bathroom last night and I was gone for a about a minute, by the time I got back to bed, Christine already took over the bed. I was relegated to about 1/10 of the bed…
That got me to thinking. How the hell she knows I got up? And what makes her think I wont be back? This is not just an isolated incident, this happens a lot! It’s like a woman has a 6th sense when the bed is empty and then they take it over, like a game of Risk!
It really is quite uncanny…
As for me, I ended up curled into a ball for the rest of the night…Grrrr….
Tags:
Family life
Categories: Random Musings
Tags: Family life
January 12th, 2009
SWEET!!!
It’s about fucking time you damn writers!
JIM, JIM, JIM, JIM, JIM!!!
WHOOT!!!!
YES!!!!
I really got freaking Goosebumps when I read he was in!!!
RED SOX RETIRE #14!!!
Tags:
Baseball,
Hall of Fame,
HOF,
Jim Rice,
Red-Sox
Categories: Random Musings
Tags: Baseball, Hall of Fame, HOF, Jim Rice, Red-Sox
January 12th, 2009
Well, today is the last time that Jim Rice will get to be on the ballot for the Baseball Hall of Fame. He was close last time but will it mean that he will get this time?
I can only hope.
Rice was one of the most respected and feared hitters during about a 10 year span from the mid 70’s – mid 80’s. He could hit for power and average. He stole bases and played a respectable Left Field.
At the end of his career he did trail off VERY quickly with no real explanation. This is what people seem to remember about him. Not that he hit during his heyday, but that he didn’t later in his career.
I think it’s a sham that he is not in yet as there are those that are in already without a better resume than Rice.
No matter what happens, Jim “Ed” Rice, will be my favorite player to ever play Baseball and one that will be enshrined in my Hall of Fame.
Tags:
Baseball,
Jim Rice
Categories: Random Musings
Tags: Baseball, Jim Rice
December 9th, 2008
Yeah. It’s tuesday, and it’s been a month or so since I last said anything. Well, I did say something since then, I just didn’t put it on here. Sometimes I think Christine wishes I wouldn’t say anything, but that is normal…
Christmas season is upon us and that means spending more money. YEAH!
Christine also got a new CX-7 so that is her christmas present and her birthday present! HA! That makes buying easy for her this year!
The CAPS keep on winning at home and play som uninspired hockey on the road. BOOO!
Friday is The Day the Earth Stood Still. Don’t mess with the classics, PLEASE!
A couple of friends have had babies in the last month! Congrats to the new parents! A Friend is going through a divorce, BOO Divorce…
And the song Handlebars SUCKS SHIT.
Thank you, please Drive Through…
Tags:
Christmas,
Washington Capitals
Categories: Family life, Friends, Movies, News, Washington Capitals
Tags: Christmas, Washington Capitals
